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Friday, October 17, 2003
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Pray hard that tomorrow goes well... How come I kept having this feeling that tomorrow will definately end up in a mess? And it seems so terrible, how can something that impossible kept popping in my mind. I kept having this feeling that everyone I have invited actually hates me.
I saw someone cry today. It's been years since I last seen her cry. Y? I feel so guilty. Y dun I just ask her why is she crying? But she is trying to hid from me, pretending that it is a flu. Excuse me, I am not idiot.. You dun have to hid when you have flu, and it is so obvious. I know she dun wan me to know.
Maybe I should ask her tomorrow, I dunno... I thought she went out with someone just now? Or I should ask her friends? Nah, she hates me to question her or her friends. I shall wait... wait... wait... Oh god.. I feel so heartbroken seeing her crying.. I wonder if you feels that way when I cry? Mai cry mai cry... I am not used to your crying face, even it is hidden.
Can I cry too? I am starting to hate the effect of the medication. The kind of depression that it creates is so unlike what I normally feel.. It is those that makes you feel lonely, abandon, unappreciate, lost, hopeless.. Well, but the fact is, I am not, and I know it. Why am I feeling this way? The feeling is so intense and unbearable. Normally, I just feel sad... just the extreme sadness. But, abandon? Lonely? Lost? Hopeless? hmm.. Arrgg....
Okay, I think this medication is definately not suitable for long term consumption. Furthermore, I read a report stating that some people will get addicated to this, and when they tried to quit, they suffer from withdrawn effects. Though I am not sure what that can be. Well, taking this medication would means, either I feel so hyper active and fun (it can block all the tiredness you feel and u know what you feel when u are hyper lack of sleep yet u dun feel tired, I really wonder what it's doing to my brain) or depression and restless (it cos restless and depression need me to explain?)
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